Day 10 of 100: Disappointment & Frustration

Today would be my 10th day of the100day project of 100 blog posts and unfortunately today was a rough day.

I am both disappointed and frustrated. I found out that members of my team have been taken their role seriously, not understanding the importance of their roles, and lying to me…needless to say that the trust has been broken in all arenas. My trust in them and their trust amongst each other. 

I am disappointed in the behaviors and actions that have happened. I am frustrated as the leader of this team in what I’ve done or not done that made this behavior seem acceptable. 

Today I’ve had many conversations, some enlightening, some infuriating, some clarifying, some confusing, and all of them tied with mixed emotions on both ends.

I’ve prayed with my mom and I do pray that God takes this situation and truly make all things work for good because today did not feel good, it felt really sad and disappointing and at times I was straight up livid that I felt my body shaking.

I hate these emotions, however I am a deeply empathetic person and it’s my strength and curse all at the same time. I’ve recently read Mark Manson’s The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F**k and I would and do highly recommend it to all. Part of the message that I took from it, is to not care too much, and to give less f**ks about things – today I’ve failed that. It is truthfully because I do care about the career I am in and the people I work with, especially my team. On days when other aspects of my career are frustrating, its this team that I helped to select that make me smile and give me reasons to keep going. So the question now, is what to do when that team breaks your smile?

I’ll be dealing with this situation over the next few days but I’m done discussing it for the night so much love till next time. 

CiggyG