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Hey everyone….sometimes people think I act like an old grandma while others sometimes say you act like a little kid…well to answer the age old question I am twenty years old. I have only been that way for like a week. Sometimes I think I am this really old person in all reality I have so much still to live for. I have so many dreams to achieve that I pray and hope happen for me. I am in the midst of doing homework and studying and well I just pray that the dreams I have come true one day. Ok….I willl write later and hopefully more frequently but I…

I am at a lost for the right words to express that to you.Of course, the typical and most siught out answer is I am fine.But that my friend is not always the case.You can easily answer tired, good, busy, worried, upset, happy, stressed, and many other things.Of course with all those answers there is another question implied? The why and how come you feel that way?Then there is the rare case of a few, including myself saying that I don’t know how I feel or you feel like an odd mixture of them all. To tell the truth I am not sure as to why I wanted to write…

There are probably many different ones but the one that comes to mind is when your friend feels betrayed by you. If it was just an acquaintance you might feel a little something but if it is your “best” or like a lifetime friend it can really hurt.Especially when you had no idea you were doing anything that would hurt them or could even be associated with that concept.After whatever the situation that arises happened and you can obviously see the distrust that person has for you, if they are a good friend, you wish and pray that you can make that feeling go away. Let them know that you…

They come at any time from anywhere, and it is up to you to actually take advantage and go for them. Opportunities that you do get are what I like to call blessings from God. You never know when to expect them, but you keep your faith and know that God is always with you even in the hardest of times. You may be struggling but that doesn’t mean he has left you it just means that you are that much closer to your blessing you just have to keep holding on and don’t lose the strength to do it. Right now I am living in one of my dreams…

A while ago I remember writing about being bored and that very weird state of it. These days I happy to say there are no cries of boredom coming from me. Those that are closest to me and even live with me barely see me I am always on the go. I truly enjoy being on the go for one it makes me feel like I have a purpose. I love not not having anything to do. When I have a lot of free time it feels as if I am wasting it.Other than the fact that I actually do love being busy, it also keeps me focused on other…

I have this crazy feeling and tears that have been coming from me all day since like 6PM and I could not place my fingers on it. But my tears are not sad but they needed to be let out. This day has been a crazy one for me, full of things coming to an end but at the same time so many more things are just getting ready to begin. I can feel it … I do not know what exactly is going to happen but I feel…I know it has to be good.

Where does one start on this topic? If I haven’t mentioned it by now or if you have not figured it out yet I am a girl. And well as we all know the opposite sex knows in reality absolutely nothing factual about the other one, but we all have our speculations and thoughts about what they do, what it means or at the very least what we think or hope to think that they mean by what they say and do. So, if you have read the previous post then well this topic of “Guys” has led me to write. This time however, when I write about them it…

Life is so unpredictable…the things that happen are crazy and unexpected even if you believe your life is so predictable that you get fed up with the boredom you get thrown curveballs. I have been getting curveballs all my life since the moment I was born. These “curveballs” do not even have to be aimed directly at you but somehow you can get hit with the after effect. Because of these unexpected, unpredicted moments you have no choice but to live in the very moment you are in because even when you plan for the future, your plans may get rearranged and changed. I have been learning this practically my…

Relationships come in all shapes and sizes. There are: sibling, parent and child, best friends, enemies, couples, and the talking state (pre couple moment). Well I would like to talk about the last two that I mentioned which deal more with couples or the semblance of one. Personally, I have never been in that kind of a relationship yet (Not that I do not want to but it just has not happened yet, not even the talking state but I digress.), but I have plenty of friends and I learn alot from watching them and seeing the different situations they go through. Well what I have learned is that above…

They are charming and sweet while at the very same time so frustrating. With that said I wonder why is it that we still fall for them so easily? Boys are cute, handsome, funny, annoying, loud, goofy, quiet, interesting, weird, unusual, and complex in a whole different level. Maybe it is this strangely unique combo that keeps us coming back for more. I have guy friends and I have had more than my handful of crushes but I have yet to have that first true intimate one on one connection with one. I would like to think that when I get to that point I will have solved the inner…